The reality of loss is in every heart, mind and soul. We all experience this on different levels at various stages of our lives. I vividly recall my cousin passing away suddenly when I was just 15. So, so hard and so much pain. These moments are written into our stories and we may never understand why and have to fully trust that God is in control and we can cast our anxieties on him,

“Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.  And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus” (Philippians 4:6-7).

Candice has experienced loss and has chosen to cast her burdens on the only one that can carry the weight we tend to shoulder. She is a beautiful example of how trusting God is the best choice, even when the hurt is deep. She is an overcomer and faithful to the calling on her life. I first met Candice and her husband at church a few years ago and have always enjoyed their company and friendship! They love the Lord and are a joy to be around.  At that time. my older boys had the privilege of having them as youth leaders and they led with humour and grace. It is a joy to welcome Candice to the blog today!

 

 

 

 

Candice Miller is a follower of Christ, wife to Dwight for 9 years and has two children ages 8 and 5. She finds joy in being a homemaker, serving and being involved in her local church, loves the humorous side to life and fish tacos!

 

 

 

 

 

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November 2020, I decided to go with my gut because I knew something was wrong.

 

Despite having had this happen before with the other 2 pregnancies, this particular one just didn’t feel right.

 

The rules at the hospital were very tight so Dwight, my husband, couldn’t come with me.

I checked into the hospital room alone, I waited alone, and 7-8 hours later, the doctor said “I’m sorry, the baby is gone.” I thanked the doctors for their help, and tried my best to walk out of the hospital without crying, I didn’t make it very far. I was physically alone through that whole process.. but believe me when I say I have NO DOUBT in my mind that God was with me every step of the way.

 

He has been so very present even now, 10 months later, in my first trimester with my fourth pregnancy and on bed rest and I know he will continue to be present. After all, he promised me that he would be.

 

I have not found in scripture promises of an easy life, an abundance of children and all the desires of my heart, however,  I have found the sweet ever so reassuring words of Matthew 11:28-29,

 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.”

 

I’m drawing closer to the Lord through prayer and reading his word, I have found great comfort in him. My husband, who I love, is a wonderful comfort, along with my children, family and church. I even find comfort in my current pregnancy. The truth is though, none of them could fill the void and none of them could truly heal. But my God he is able and that’s where all my trust, hope and faith rests.

 

I feel peace.

 

“Bear the yoke of love and death

The Lord will give all life and breath”

Because of his great love…

 

I trust in the grace and sovereignty of my God, because there I find my rest.

 

 

 

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